already preparing the polite face I wore for these moments. A nod. A dollar. A quick, guilty smile.
My fingers hit lint. A receipt. A gum wrapper.
Nothing.
“Spare some change?” she asked.
Her voice wasn’t sharp. It wasn’t pleading. It was worn down to something quiet, like she wasn’t asking for a miracle, just checking whether kindness still existed in the world.
“I’m sorry,” I said, the words automatic, already slipping away from her as I stepped toward the doors.
But I didn’t go in.
Something held me there,
